My word for 2015 was trust. At the beginning of last year when God put that word on my heart I had no idea what my journey would be or just how much I would need to remember that little five letter word. As I sit here reflecting on 2015 tears come to my eyes, partially for the joy and partially for the pain. Overall, 2015 was a year for many firsts and hopefully not lasts, not yet anyway. I had my highs and lows just like everyone else, but unfortunately my highs are directly tied to my lows. I’m finally at a point that I can look at them as two separate things, but it hasn’t been easy getting there. 2015 started out with a bang, a lot of hope and excitement and that’s where I’ll start my list with you:
January: I was writing my first children’s book
Nick and The North End were preparing for a CD release party
February: CD and Children’s book released
March: Family first-went to Fort Worth Zoo over spring break
Late May: No longer writing children’s books
June: Alex: first time to go to church camp and first time to go to a week long camp in
Dallas/Ft. Worth
Bekah: first time to go to UT Tyler softball camp
July: Family road trip across Texas (first time)
August: I was hired to teach at New Summerfield (loving it, in case you were wondering)
September: Nick is no longer the drummer for The North End
November: David and Vals’ 40th Wedding Anniversary
Alex gets Sapphire (his dog)
December: God has started preparing us for what lies ahead for 2016.
I pick up where the lists stops, right now, December 31st sitting here trying my best to focus on the good and not the bad (sad) of 2015. God knows I struggled with my little five letter word -trust- ended up not being easy and certainly not little. I learned to trust God when my path no longer made sense and more importantly I learned to trust him and to not try to make sense out of everything that was happening. Sometimes it’s best to just trust that God knows and he knew what was going to happen and walk away, no matter how deep you are hurt. I’ve done some serious soul searching during my time off from work. Just in the last couple of hours I asked Nick what is one thing I can work on this next year to be a better person, mom and wife. I challenge you to ask someone who you love and can count on to be honest with you the same question. It might hurt to hear the truth, and I dare say this, only ask if you’re willing to truly work on whatever it is they say. Over the past week I have asked God to reveal to me what my word will be for 2016, have you? I have an idea what my word is, but I will not share it with you until I am certain of it. As we turn the lights out on 2015 and shine the light on 2016 remember whatever lies ahead that God is there, you can trust him and he has great plans for you.
“For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord,plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11) Until next time, remember : “The works of His hands are truth and justice; all His instructions are trustworthy.” (Psalm 111:7)
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