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Friday, August 31, 2012

Letting Go

Letting go of what is hurting you can be hard...ok is often very hard.  We grow so comfortable with hurting, or maybe we become numb to the hurt, that we don't realize it's there.  It effects everything you do.  You don't realize you are hurting yourself or others who care about you.  All of this because you're not letting go.  Once we are saved we are suppose to take off the old and we are to put on the new.  Sometimes we need to do it over and over again. "For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves to sin-" Romans 6:6
  The hurt that you are not letting go of is causing you to view your life differently.  The anguish that you go through is seeping out and touching the lives of  your loved ones and odds are you don't see it.  No matter how big or small your hurt is, take the time to give it over to God.  Your big maybe my small and vice versa but hurt is hurt and it will leave a mark.  If it's something that needs to be talked about with someone may I suggest you pray about it then talk to them.  Personally, I am a writer so I tend to write people letters, but you need to do what ever will bring you peace.  Just recently I have started trying to talk to people about how they hurt me, but that process is slow and is going to take time.  I say turn to God first because He sees both sides of your hurt.  He wants to help you get past the hurt and for you to let it go.  I know someone who can calm any storm and that is Jesus. He even does so in Mark. " He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm." Mark 4:39  If He can calm the storm on a sea I know He can calm the storm inside of me.  I ask you to set aside your emotions, turn it over to God, and resolve to let it go.  Remember the only person you can change or "fix" is yourself. Know that when you are faced with a trial you are being made stronger. "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." James 1:2-3  Once you start letting go of your hurts you will feel like a new person.  God can and will heal your hurts...it's a process but as long as you give it to Him "The Healer" you will feel better.  Until next time may God Bless you and Keep you.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Prayer

"Hear my prayer, O God; listen to the words of my mouth."   
 Psalm 54:2
   When was the last time you stopped and prayed?  This morning, last night, through out the day, Sunday, last week, last month?  Ok, you get the point....this is strictly between you and God.  It is none of my business but I ask only to make you stop and think.  I pray daily, and often through out my day, but the last time I stopped and prayed and poured out my heart....sadly until this morning it had a been a while.  Why???  I let myself get caught up in the daily activities that needed to be done and the attention my family needs from me became more important.  God kept saying, "Kim stop and talk to me."  My answer was I do talk to you, daily and often more than once Lord, what else do you need from me.  Selfish as I am with my time I had let being a wife and mommy get in the way.  I promised last night that today after I dropped the kids off at school and came home, no matter what needed to be done I would stop and pray before taking care of anything else.  If you are like me, when you pray we often ask for the things we want, and to help others, and thank God for what he has given me, but there is more to prayer than that.  Prayer should be a conversation between you and God.  Take the time to glorify him, praise him, tell him what is on your heart, and don't be ashamed because he knows before you do what's really going on, ask forgiveness of even the small things done wrong, but take the time to listen to him.  Don't just beg for him to do your will and give you all your wants. 
 "May my prayer be set before you like incense; may the lifting up of my hands be like the evening sacrifice." Psalm 141:2  I by no means have the best prayer life and certainly not one to tell you how I think you should pray.  I do know how I feel and can only share that with you and hope that it helps you with your prayer life.  I know that when I take the time to pray to God not just thanking him for another day or asking him for something but truly praying I feel at peace.  I don't always feel comfortable talking to God as most of us don't, but I have learned the more I pray the more comfortable I feel.  It begins to feel like I am talking to a friend, and that's what God wants.  He wants us to talk to him like we are friends.  After all he called us friends in the book of John.  "I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you." John 15:15   I am a friend to God so it's only fitting that I take the time to talk to him.  How often do you talk to your friends?  God should be the most important friend we have, so he should get more of our time.  I'll say one last thing before I go...remember when we talk to God and pray earnestly...He answers all prayers.  They may not be answered the way we think they should or in the time we want things to happen but he does always answer your prayers.  His timing is perfect as is His will for our lives.  You have to pray knowing God can and will provide for you.  "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." Mark 11:24   I ask as you go about your day talk to God and listen to his still small voice.  Look for God throughout your day...the red bird on the tree branch just outside your kitchen window as your washing dishes, the song that lifts your spirits, the thought of I need to call a special person....all signs that God is in your life.  Trust Him and grow your friendship with Him.  Until next time may God Bless you and Keep you.
P.S.  I came home and prayed just like I promised and can say I feel more at peace today than I have the last three days. :)
           

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Lean on Him

I need to make sure that it is noted when I use a Bible verse that I am using it from the NIV Bible. That is from past blogs and future unless otherwise stated.
   "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day."      2 Corinthians 4:16
    It seems the older I get the more I hear about people being sick or dying or some horrible accident happening.  It is very easy to say, "you know what, I give up!  What is all of this for anyway?"  I am here asking you to not give up.  Your Father in heaven is with you and though times might be tough He is with you.  Remember we must do this, "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:18  It is hard to not give up and to fix our eyes on the Lord.  Especially when our loved ones are stricken with a disease, dealing with death whether it be a loved one or a friend losing a loved one.  We know that this is life's circle and all part of God's great plan.  The trials we face make us the person we are today.  How you handle your trial is when your light will shine or be dimmed.  Not matter how big or small your trial is remember to, "cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7
    My life, as short as it may seem to many of you has been full of a lifetime of trials already and yet I know there are many more to come my way.  I find the more I lean on Him even in the small things of life that when the storm comes I am better prepared.  I'm not saying that I don't hurt, cry, mourn and wonder why.  I am saying that I understand that God loves me, has a plan for me and though I don't always understand what or why I know it's for His good.  "And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19  If you ask,  you shall receive. Your answer may not be what you wanted but it's what God wants for you.  So as we face today, with droughts, hurricanes, incurable diseases, death, life changing decisions, raising children, handling an irate person, or just sitting at home I hope you will find peace knowing God is with you.  He is willing to hold your hand, stand beside or behind you, stand in front of you, or pick you up and carry you....find Him...listen....and lean on Him my friend....find your strength in Him.  "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5  Life was not promised to be easy but the rewards are far greater than we can imagine...stand strong..in Him.  Until next time may God Bless you and Keep you. 

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Judging Others

My apologies for a late start again this morning.  I am trying to get use to a new routine and so I find myself not quite sure when I'll get to write.  We often find ourselves looking at people and making assumptions about them.  Before you say no I don't, let me give a few examples....if you are in a store and someone walks by covered in dirt you probably think one of two things.  They either work outside as a living or they haven't washed clothes...right?  How about the lady driving the newest BMW?  Does it make it better or worse that she is driving and putting make up on...and the light just turned green?  But that's not judging....is it?  When does it become harmful?  Let's take a look...
   "Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." Matthew 7:1-2 These two verses speak volumes.  If we judge then expect to be judged.  Ok, so the things I listed above doesn't seem too harmful.  What if we decided to act on our own judgment?  If we decide to be rude to the person in dirty clothes just because they smell from making a living, then it is becoming harmful.  How about we take it a step further and they are in the parking lot needing assistance but we chose to ignore them because they are dirty and smell and probably just looking for a hand out.  Ouch, what did we just do?  Let's take the lady in the BMW...thanks to her you are now running late to that appointment.  You finally pass her and get to your appointment but not without explaining the problem.  On your way home there is a BMW on the side of the road...it's the same lady as earlier.  You fly right on by thinking that's what she gets, besides she has money if she can buy one of those fancy cars.  Another ouch!!  By no means are either judgments major but when we act on our own motives without seeking God's view of these people we error.  The only person who can judge and judge correctly is God.  These are common things that everyone does and I personally try not to fall victim to but do.  God sees each of us as equals and loves all of us the same. "Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned.  Forgive, and you will be forgiven." Luke 6:37
     There are times when we judge others and it deals with major decisions like divorce, children out of wedlock, homosexuals, handling of death or birth of family members.  The best thing to remember is we don't know the whole story, no matter how much we think we know.  You haven't walked in that persons shoes or know the situation. "So when you, a mere human being, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God's judgment?" Romans 2:3  Most people are doing the best they can.  Some know God and rely fully on His guidance...others do not.  Remember we are called to let our light shine and when we let our human emotions get in the way our light is dimmed.  So today, as you go about your life ask God to give you his eyes.  To see people the way He sees them, and to treat them as He treats you. "For God does not show favoritism." Romans 2:11  My prayer for myself today is that I guard my thoughts closely and see people as only God can see them.  I ask that God will help me to not show favoritism but to accept all walks of life.  Until next time may God Bless you and Keep you.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Comfort Zone

Good Morning, 
   I hope that you all had a blessed weekend.  Today's post is later than normal but I've had a busy morning.  Today is the first day of school and this Mommy had to take her babies to school alone.  So of course I had to be strong and not cry in front of them.  It's funny how my kids will love on me at home but we set foot in the school and my second grader acts like I have the plague. :)  Although I'm sad I am very blessed that my kids go to a school that they feel comfortable without me.  I thought I would talk a little about getting out of our comfort zone on this first day of school.
   As I send my babies off to school I have to remember that God says he will be with us wherever we go.  "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous.  Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9  I can rest easy knowing that God is with my babies and me wherever we go.  He is also with you.  The first day of school is always hard because you have new teachers, and will have new kids in your class.  This is when you have to step out of your comfort zone and know God is with you.  I stepped out of my comfort zone today by taking my kids to school alone and then not calling my son back to me to give me a hug.  I was wanting him to give me a hug but I knew he would be embarrassed so I just waved by, wished him a good day, and quickly exited the room.  It amazes me how these little ones can step out of their home (comfort zone) and into school and adjust so quickly.  Adjusting to change so gracefully is something I could learn from my kids.
   I have stepped out of my comfort zone over the past year.  All baby steps of course, but it's too scary to take big steps or jump sometimes into the unknown.  I started attending Bible study...waaayyyy out of my comfort zone, then I wrote letters to ask and give forgiveness, and started writing a blog....all things that I'm uncomfortable with but things that I feel God has laid on my heart to do.  I must go on, in His will and not mine but I try to remember this: "David also said to Solomon his son, "Be strong and courageous, and do the work. Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord God, my God is with you He will not fail you nor forsake you until all the work for the service of the temple of the Lord is finished." 1 Chronicles 28:20  Just knowing that every little thing I do for God he is with me puts my mind to ease....even when it's really hard to calm my nerves.  Each step I have taken out of my comfort zone God has blessed me more than I could imagine. I don't say these things to toot my own horn but to show you that if I can do it so can you.  My prayer for you today is that you will take a step, however small, out of your comfort zone.  God doesn't want us to sit back and fear the what ifs in life.  He wants us to, "Rise up; this matter is in your hands. We will support you, so take courage and do it." Ezra 10:4  So get out there...leave your mark on the world....even the smallest pebble has a ripple effect.  Until next time may God Bless you and Keep you.   

Friday, August 24, 2012

Just Dunno

Good Morning,
    I am sitting here at my computer wondering what should I write about today.  I usually have an idea and have written some things down before now.  I am tired, as today is Friday and the kids and I have been getting up early to get use to school starting back.  We had meet the teacher last night and all went well.  My daughter starts kindergarten this year and my son will be in 2nd grade.  Boy, time sure flies.  Today instead of saying much and trying to force something to write about I am going to ask you if you would to please pray for the teachers, students, parents, administration, custodians, bus drivers, and teacher assistants as the new school year starts up.  Each person listed above has life going on outside of school and they bring that with them.  Their experience will not match yours and so my prayer is that all will have a blessed year and wonderful memories are made. Thanks for reading...check back with me Monday....I'm sure I will have plenty to say...it's the first day of school. :)  Until next time may God bless you and keep you.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Who Am I?

 Good morning, have you ever wondered who am I?  I have found myself wondering exactly who I am.  Let me explain, before you say I should know.  My dad died at the age of 32 from a heart attack and I was only 7.  My mom's dad died a few months later.  I grew up not knowing or forming a relationship with these two men and I was afraid to ask questions about them.  Both men led lives that I know only snippets of.  So I find myself asking who am I.  Where do I get this from?  Why do I like that?  Sadly I still don't feel comfortable asking about my dad or grandad. As the questions start to pour in somewhere a small voice says, "Kim, you know who you are, cheer up."  Yes, I do know who I am-I am a child of God, heir to the throne. "Now if we are children, then we are heirs-heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory." Romans 8:17  I do not need to know my dad because I know my Father.  He is with me always.  I find myself seeking approval, yet I don't need it.  My God accepts me for who I am today, not who I was or who I will be. "For we know, brothers and sisters loved by God, that he has chosen you." 1 Thessalonians 1:4  I pray my friend that you know Him too.  That God is your father and Jesus Christ is your savior.  The Holy Spirit dwells in me so I know where I stand even in the dark times.  I hope that you can find that peace only He can give you if you are struggling with who you are. "For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." Ephesians 2:10 Be comfortable with who you are, because you are created by Him for Him and allow yourself to rest in Him.  It's not always easy and the devil knows your weaknesses that's when you need to remember who you are....a child of God and He is with you.  Until next time may God Bless you and Keep you.
 * If you read this and you're not sure if you're a child of God or you know you're not please message me or find someone who can help you with knowing your savior. *
  

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Friendship

"My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:12-13
     Isn't it funny how we want to grow up when we are kids and once we are grown we realize what we wished away.  Without realizing it, part of my wishing as a kid was wishing away my friends.  I married and making friends seemed like a thing from my childhood. I made a few friends here and there for the first few years of my marriage but no one that stuck with me or me to them.  I began to wonder if God wanted me to have friends.  I felt like I was being punished or maybe something was wrong with me....OK....my friends I know what you're thinking...watch it! :) I want to share some verses from Proverbs with you.
     " A righteous man is cautious in friendship, but the way of the wicked leads them astray." Proverbs 12:26
    "He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffer harm." Proverbs 13:20
    "Do not make friends with a hot-tempered man, do no associate with one easily angered, or you may learn his ways and get yourself ensnared." Proverbs 22:24-25
 Obviously, there is a reason it's hard to make friends.  The Bible tells us to be cautious when choosing friends.  So without realizing what was going on I think God was protecting me.  I am happy to say that since I started attending Bible study God has blessed me with new friends.  Friends are a blessing from God and shouldn't be taken for granted.  They will help get you through the tough times and be there during the fun times.  I thank God for my friends.  Like all relationships there will be struggles but I invite you to consider this verse: "Wounds from a friend can be trusted but an enemy multiplies kisses." Proverbs 27:6  How can a friend who hurt you possibly be trusted?  I say think about what the hurt is and consider if they were trying to help you, maybe it was unintentional, or purposeful.  If it's the first two take time to reflect and let go of the hurt.  If it's the last one, maybe it's time to consider if they were truly a friend to begin with.  I treasure each of my friends.  Each one brings a new perspective to my life and I gain so much from them.  Take the time to let your friends know how much they mean to you.  Remember this verse when you are struggling with a friend: " A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Proverbs 17:7  May we all be blessed with friends that we would lay down our lives for.  Until next time may God Bless you and Keep you.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Trust In God

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
  As I sit here asking God to provide the words that we need to read I realize it's a lot easier to say I trust in God than it actually is.  I mean, I know God is God and He can do all things but when it comes to effecting my life it's hard.  I struggle with letting go of the control I like to pretend I have.  The cold hard truth hit me in the face today as all my teacher friends went back to work.  The truth being my income is about to dwindle way down.  So, trusting in God plays a vital part in my life from this point forward. (always has but really sticks out now) I am learning to lean on the Lord daily and not just when times get tough.  This verse seems to help: "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God." Isaiah 41:10  Knowing that I am doing what God wants me to do helps ease my fear, but it will be daily that I, "Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always." 1 Chronicles 16:11
  When it comes to trusting God we can't play the what if game.  You know, what if this happens or what if I would have done that.  Psalm 33:4 says, "For the word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does."  God will not lead you in the wrong direction, but often we have to be patient and remember it's all in His timing not ours.  When I started my journey of forgiving and letting go I decided to follow what 2 Corinthians 5:7 says: " We live by faith, not by sight."  Sitting here thinking about my situation I can say I do trust God with all my heart and the struggle really comes from not knowing how He is going to work in my life.  I'm a planner, so I want Him to take the blinders off now, no really NOW!  That's not always the case, but hopefully this will encourage you.  Keep looking to God and always put your trust in him.  "But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him." Jeremiah 17:7  Until next time may God Bless you and Keep you.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Road Trip

My God, my God how majestic is your creation!  After my road trip to west Texas I can honestly say I am in awe of God's creation.  The vast difference from east and west Texas is mind boggling....at least to for me.  It's hard to believe it's the same state.  How can one state have so many geographic differences?  The thick forests of tall pine trees in the east to the beautiful mountains in the west.
   My trip started with me traveling south to my old stompin grounds.  I met up with my mom, aunt and cousin for a road trip to Alpine, TX home of Sul Ross State University.  Traveling through Houston we were below sea level so it's hard to imagine out west are mountains.  While in the mountains we stopped by an observatory in Ft. Davis which was a mile high, that is the same elevation as Denver.  The mountains were beautiful, but mystical as the rain came through.  I can't see how anyone can say God doesn't exist.  God's artwork is everywhere.  From the mountain ranges to the one purple flower blooming on the side of the mountain.
   My trip was great and I was able to spend quality time with my family.  I have seen the "circle of life" play out this weekend.  My mom, aunt and cousin shipped me off to college at S.F.A. (AXE 'EM) and I shipped my cousin of to college. :)  God is great!  While I broadened my horizons by going west God was reminding me of the wonderful memories I have with these three special ladies and healing my hurts.  Just as God created the heavens and the earth He created us.  Each person is unique, not one of us is the same.  God gave us a gift of belonging to a family, biological or otherwise.  I'm so thankful for my family. Families can cause you a lot of hurt, but they will also be the ones who stand beside you.  Take the time today to enjoy the uniqueness of everyone around you...even though it can be annoying.  Isaiah says, "Yet you, Lord are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand." Isaiah 64:8  Until next time may God Bless you and Keep you.

Friday, August 17, 2012

Forgiveness Day 3

O what a blessing to hear the rain and thunder this morning.  Thank you God for giving us the much needed rain.  Before I start with forgiveness I want you to know that I will not post anything this weekend.  I will be out of town, so I will catch up to you on Monday.  May your weekend be full of blessings. :)
  I know it seems I have written on this topic too much, but the Bible is full of verses on forgiveness.  Right now I know many hurt people and to be honest I'm one of those people.  The only way to work through that is to start forgiving.  I left off on day two saying there is more to my journey.  I have written three more letters since that first one and of the three I have only heard back from one.  The response was surprising.  They responded in love and saying that they would do better and that they loved me.  Wow, amazing how just stating how you feel and making sure the people you talk to know you love them can work in your favor (most of the time).  It's hard not knowing what the other two think or feel, but it's awesome knowing I am set free from my past.  My letters weren't written just to accuse and to forgive but to also ask them to forgive me.  Each relationship has two sides, and I know I wasn't perfect and never will be.  Jesus tells us in Mark to forgive others.  "And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive your sins." Mark 11:25  We are to be like Christ and even though forgiveness is hard for us it's not hard for God.  As a matter of fact if you ask He will forgive you.  "Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord." Acts 3:19 
  Believe me, God can refresh you like nothing or anyone else can.  Writing those letters has given me a new beginning.  The hardest thing is letting go of the hurt but remember Jesus says, "For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins." Matthew 6:14-15  Once you let go of the hurt someone has dealt you, you will feel like a new person or at least have the weight lifted off your shoulders.  Remember in order to be forgiven you have to forgive.  So I ask you, will you set yourself free and forgive those who have hurt you today?  "Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you." Ephesians 4:32  Until next time may God bless you and keep you.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Rejection

Ouch, tough one to talk about.  I'm not finished with forgiveness but God laid it on my heart pretty heavily last night to write about rejection today.  Could it be because that's what I worry about, being rejected that is?  I'm sure that has a lot to do with it, but I also know that someone out there is dealing with a pretty heavy dose of rejection.  My fear of rejection stems from my childhood and nothing from today other than recovering from my childhood.  I'm writing in hopes of putting some balm on your wounds as you see God already applied the balm on mine while I was looking up verses to help support me today.  We know that throughout the Bible Jesus was rejected.  You can start in Genesis and find rejection.  The rejection of your family cuts deeper than anything and that's exactly what happened to Joseph, so much so that his brothers sold him into slavery all because he shared his dream.  "When he told his father as well as his brothers, his father rebuked him and said, "What is this dream you had? Will your mother and I and your brothers actually come and bow down to the ground before you?"  I'm sure Joseph, thought ouch, but was sure this dream would happen and it did.  You see, Joseph was rejected by his family (mainly brothers) but God took care of him, just as God will take care of you.  Even in Psalm 27:10 it states how God will always receive us. "Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me." 
   There have been many times in my life when I cried out just like the Psalmist, "O Lord, do not forsake me; be not far from me, O my God.  Come quickly to help me, O Lord my Savior."  Psalm 38:21-22  Ok, so I didn't say do not forsake me but I have said Lord please help me.    Rejection hurts, lets face it everyone has felt rejected at some point in there life.  It may not be a constant in your life or it could be a thing of your past (like mine) but hurt is hurt, big or small.  As you think about your rejection I ask you to focus on Jesus and how we rejected him.  "He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering,  Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not." Isaiah 53:3  Jesus came to suffer as we suffer so that one day we will suffer no more.  John 1:11 says, "He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him."   We may be rejected by friends, owwww, and we may be rejected by family, OUCH, but we will never be rejected by our Father in heaven.  I will leave you with two verses to help you go about your day and deal with the small rejections of life or maybe the biggest rejection you've faced thus far in your life. 
   1 Peter 2:4 "As you come to him, the living Stone-rejected by men but chosen by God and precious to him."  
   Psalm 94:14 "For the Lord will not reject his people; he will never forsake his inheritance."
     Do you see, you are precious to God and he will not forsake you or me?  :)  Rejection hurts, life can hurt but know that God is with you and knows your hurts.  I pray that this will be a start to healing your wounds.  I know it helped me.  I apologize for another long post, but I write what's on my heart not a set limit.  Thanks for hanging with me, until next time...May God Bless You and Keep You.

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Forgiveness Day 2

Good Morning.  O how He loves us, isn't this true?  He loves us so much not only is He willing to forgive us but he sent his one and only son to die for us.  I started yesterday by saying that about a year ago I started a journey of forgiveness, but before I can tell you about my journey I want to share a verse that tells us just how much He forgives us.  Psalm 103:12 says, "as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us."  I'm stopping to think about that and the world comes to mind and that I can't stretch my arms around the world to demonstrate. Now I imagine stretching my arms out and telling my kids I love you this much and yet isn't that what Jesus said when He died on the cross?  How far is the east from the west...kinda boggles the mind...well at least mine. :) 
   I hope I can show you just how much He forgives us by sharing my journey.  I started my journey of forgiveness in the fall Bible study of last year.  I felt God prompting me to write a book of my life up to that point.  Which I did and I felt so much better as the pain of my life developed into me realizing how much God was in my life and actually seeing certain moments He was right there with me.  It doesn't end with a book that I'm sure many will never read.  No, I felt God telling me to start writing letters to those who have hurt me and to forgive them as He has forgiven me.  It is written, " I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more." Isaiah 43:25  If God will blot out my transgressions against Him, not once, not twice, but daily...every time I ask him to forgive me, then shouldn't I forgive those who hurt me?  My first letter was hard to write and even as I finished it I wasn't sure I should send it off.  The day I put it in the mail was the day I felt a new peace wash over me.  It's true, forgiveness sets you free, I didn't hear back from that person and I never will, but knowing that he knew I forgave him made me feel so much better.  We are to be Christ like and what better way to show it than to show forgiveness.  "The Lord our God is merciful and forgiving, even though we have rebelled against him." Daniel 9:9  My journey was just beginning with that letter.  I challenge you to forgive someone today that has hurt you....write them a letter or talk to them.  This choice will set you free... Until next time may God bless you and keep you.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Forgiveness

Good morning.  Not only have my thoughts been on my future but on forgiveness and forgiving. The new song Forgiveness by Matthew West has a way of making you think of forgiving.  I can say this song speaks to my heart when I hear it.  I started a journey about a year ago, through a women's Bible study, that has led me to start forgiving and more importantly letting go.  During the past year my life has been a roller coaster of ups and downs but it seems the downs far out weigh the ups.  The old phrase, "forgive and forget" is a lot easier said than done, at least for me.  They say forgiving is the easy part, but to be honest if we don't "forget" we aren't truly forgiving.  Okay, hang on I know you don't agree, let me finish.  If you forgive someone you can't simply forget, there is a mark from the person who hurt you and it will take a while to heal.  I simply believe that we should forget by letting it go.  It's not going to just go away so you can forget, but you can let it go, give it to God and let him deal with it.  Every time that hurt resurfaces just give it back to God. That is what I mean by "forgetting".  My forgiveness blog will be more than one day so hang with me if you will.  In order for us to forgive and I mean truly forgive we have to understand forgiveness and that it has been given to us.  Do you know that God forgave the Israelites all the way back in the desert?  "The Lord replied, "I have forgiven them, as you asked." Numbers 14:20  This verse shows us God is willing to forgive you even when you mess up over and over...as the Israelites did those 40 years in the desert.  I am listening to KVNE (89.5) right now and Forgiveness by Matthew West just came on. :)  "Show me how to see what your mercy sees....forgiveness"  I think I will stop here for now.  If you have a chance listen to this song, and I mean truly listen to the words....be still and let the words sink in.  Until next time may God bless you and keep you.

Monday, August 13, 2012

BE STILL

 Today is your lucky day, why?  Because I will post twice today. :)  As I went about my day and thought more on my blogging I decided to listen to God and see what He had to say.  I mentioned in my first post that I am curious what my future will hold.  The more I thought on this the more my mind went back to my daily devotions I've been reading lately.  They both in the past couple of days talked about being still and listening to God.  Being patient and waiting on anything is something I am still working on and honestly believe God gave me my second child to help me with that. :)  I decided to look up the words BE STILL in the Bible and see exactly where they are used and why.  Mainly so I can see why should I be still, especially when the world says walk, jog, run, hop, jump, fly, you must always have something going and it's even better if it's all at the same time...well okay, that's how it feels but if you have kids you know what I mean.  Other than walking with my friends to get exercise, walking does not fit in my life.  So back to my question....why be still?  I invite you to  look at three verses that I found and let's see if I can answer that question. 
  The first time be still is used in the Bible is in Exodus 14:14 "The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still."  This is talking of the Isrealites fleeing the Egyptians.  Funny how God sent them out of Egypt and when they began to cry out he told them be still.  Isn't this what we all want to do, fight our own fight and when things get too tough then we call on God and cry out.  If only we would do this first....Be still and he will fight for you and answer you, but you have to listen. The next verse is really hard for me as I'm sure it is for you  Psalm 37:7 says, "Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes."  Ha, did I just read that I am to be patient...O how I dread that word.  Be patient....we as a world are not patient...we have to always hurry to get where we are going and in college we even have a ten minute rule...professor doesn't show up we are gone. Who has time to wait?  But what are we missing if we aren't being patient and waiting on the Lord?  How many opportunities to do great things for Him has passed me by because I wasn't patient or I put a time frame on what God should do?  I catch myself sometimes praying God if you could just do this now then I can do that later.  That's not what we are told to do though.  God's timing is perfect and so I find that if I wait it's always better than I had planned. This next verse I knew before I looked it up because I have heard it a lot. Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."  Again, I have no problem with knowing that God is God and he will be exalted, but that first part gets me every time.  If I hurry and do this then maybe this will happen and if that happens then I can get what I want and probably a lot faster than if I am still. Right, I mean we are taught if you want something go for it.  You can't sit still or it might not be there later.  God will allow things to happen in your life as He plans for them to.  No need to rush.  After all in Mark 4:39 Jesus calmed the storm, "He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet!" Be still! Then the wind completely died down and it was completely calm."  If the waves and wind are calmed by Jesus, so should we.  Seek Him daily, search for His answers in the Bible, and take the time to Be Still and listen.  I assure you He will answer.  No matter if you're like me wondering what your future might hold or going through one of life's many tragedies, quiet yourself and be still.  After all, "What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? " Romans 8:31  Life is difficult, and way more complicated than I ever imagined it would be, but He tells you Be Still so even though it's hard for me to do.  I am going to work on being still and waiting patiently.  Sorry for the long post, until next time may God Bless you and Keep you. :)
   
"Be still, and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10

Beginning

I am not sure how much time I will have daily to write on here but I like to write and I wanted to try blogging.  I want to keep this blog uplifting.  As I think about what to write I sit here and wonder what is my life going to be like.  Let me back up and tell you a little about what's going on with me.  I resigned as a Jr. High teacher this past May and have decided to stay at home.  I will be fortunate enough to keep a baby during the day, but what exactly does my future hold?  I know you are reading this and thinking I'm crazy...well I am, but I honestly believe I am doing what God wants me to do.  That doesn't mean I don't have my doubts or questions but I know I can rest peacefully because my life is in His hands.  The verse, " For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 comes to mind. The best place to be is in His hands. It's about time for lunch so I'll visit some more later, thanks for reading and may God Bless you and keep you.